If wan read this pls don be mean.. this is what my feels... ^^

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Finally finally & finally i've done 1 thing i wan to do for very long time ago.. Now i've done it.. 2 years ago, i've realize all the things i though is totally wrong.. especially wat i've learn is 'never ever play game in relationship'.. Do u believe in karma..? Guess what? I finally believe.. It do happen to me right now..

What is the thing i wan to do for so long..? Is i wanna admit my wrong  abt what i've done to him 2 years ago.. How..? There is a night 1 of my babe, Victoria tel me some what Jess*#@%  tryin to let her know how bad am i in my past, the way i treat my ex.. Yes, its truth.. I've make him crazy.. I admit it.. But maybe 1 thing u don know bitch! Is i never ever LIE ! If any pl ask me abt how fantasy is my past, im surely say it honestly.. For those frens i've 'hurt' pls don say so much how much i've hurt u.. This is because i've no doubt the way i treat my frens.. Pl who know me well sure know i treat frens better than my bf.. lolz, i feel like totally bitch now.. yea, im.. so..? But what i do from now on, i do it by my heart sincerely.. FAKE not my style.. Well, until now i think i never treat anyone bad except 1 lifeless bitch who deserve it.. haha.. XD (babe,pls don mad at me)

okok..

(DD, i am sorry..) This is what i wan to say out loud.. I never wan u to forgive.. I jus wan say it out how much i regret when i lost u.. But is ok now.. ^^ we both have our own new life & different happy ending.. Glad to see u have a happy life.. Opps.. not see.. is hear.. haha ^^

10 little th!ngs I LOVE U~

bobo.. see ur babe me so good, din update my thing 1st but urs 1st.. haha (actually those pic have to load, im lazy)
sry, bobo.. until nw i stil no idea hw to celebrate ur bday.. to be honest, i din realize we together almost 2 years d.. its really surprising me.. haha..

so here, make u happy.. let u know what i love abt u la~~~

1~ of cos all my frens know, u always be there help me done all my assignment no matter how hard it is..
      i know im bad never say thanks, bt u know u love me too la.. hahaha

2~ always be my driver when i need u.. bt bobo, i prefer u drive my car.. haha XD

3~ always explain to me when im not understand the movie.. bt bobo, pls improve ur explaination, don always ask u wat is rebellion then u answer me rebellion la.. swt =.=||| 

4~ always be my english teacher even u always laugh at me stupid, NVM i can scold u in chns back.. haha u dunno le??!!!

5~ i love bobo hold my hand went up stair sleep & on the lights for me.. hehe u know i afraid of ghost..

6~ i love bobo always give me ur skeleton arm, hug me & calm me sleep.. poor u keep change hand when another hand is numb.. haha

7~ always eat other part of chicken cos u know i love wings.. actually i know u like chicken wings too.. haha

8~ love u started less smoking for me.. im trying too.. lets work together bobo..

9~ love ur dance at home.. (only me & gizmo can see only)

10~ this is what i love u most ! nick aw tiong ghee.. u never give me up easily, at the begining u waiting for me. u never give up me when i keep push u away, u say we tolerate, actually i know is u tolerate me more.. u let me be selfish gf.. u let me be the girl pl envy me so much.. i love u bobo..

18~01~2010

today, some of my frens ask where do i count down my brithday.. 
so ok, i post this out let u guys know.. haha..

actually, i've never plan to count down.. 
cause im too busy after i wake up early in the morning.. 
i've to help my parent take care of their shops cause mommy & daddy sick in same time swt.. 
no choice la, who ask them yesterday so yeng suddenly good in mood say im 21 years old d so wanted to bring me go casino.. 

haha, actually i've went in before edi jus they dunno only.. 
see how good gal am i infront of them haha.. 
so when reach genting there is quite late d cause need visit my youngest bro a while.. 
daddy fast fast run to his lovely playground 1st cause he don wan waste him time to accompany us buy clothes for my bro.. 
when talk abt my bro..? 
1 word
~ haih~

he wear a very normal t-shirt, short pant && slipper !!! 
argh~! 
so no choice la, need help him buy from top til down.. 
so regret din capture his before & after look..
freaking different.. 
before, he so like at hometown yam cha look.. 
after, he do really so yeng zai like ready to club.. 
haha, he is goin to lose his very 1st time club v me soon.. 

then we try bring my underage bro to casino.. 
1st door check, he failed.. 
2nd door check, failed.. 
3rd door check, success.. yeah~ 
guess wat..? 
give guards money..?
no no no.. 
use my bobo's IC.. 
hahaha.. 
they also got check me too, yeah~ i look young.. 
haha.. 

after that bobo & daddy teach my bro little bit abt gamble things.. 
haih, 2 gambler pls don teach bad little boy la.. sad.. 
we jus go in around 2 hours only then go to the casino's restaurant have supper.. 
haih, my fav buffet boh liao.. 
now change to stupid mainly dishes.. 
not nice to eat at all also.. 
bluek.. 
so, thats all our vacation then we reach home around 2am something.. *this is the reason y daddy & mommy exhausted fall sick jor.. haha   


ohya, forget to say how i count down.. hehe, its in the car v my bobo~! yeah ! how..?

aiyoyo, stil got any excited thing can do in car middle of the night~~
~think more than that~

jeng jeng jeng

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by stuck in jam of block on the way back to kl.. muahahah
but anyway, im happy of it cause i get a lots of birthday wishes summore there is a very unexpected pl wish me too.. haha

happy birthday to myself
xoxo, no gossip girl ><"

G!zmo wash white white ><"

suddenly feel like want to share my 2 weeks din bath silky terrier dog, gizmo's look..
ngek ngek.. before & after...

 lol, momo's stinky look.. ew.... hehehe.. so afraid, at the sink, prepare to let me bath him.. ngek ngek..

after the bubble & water war~!!!

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~jeng jeng jeng~

muahahah... leng zai le.. hohoho

all right, thats all i wanna share..

have a nice day, woof woof..

what am i avoiding for ?

fuck ! im freaking dizzy recently..

too much stress coming now..

mom ask not to think so much cause im stil young..?

damn ! im almost 21 now mom !

its the time now..

i must face the fact..

i must plan for my future..

i miss all my time when im in kindergarden..

so young, so little..

but big boss, mom dad love me so much..

 in primary..

shryne still is the boss who always bully pl..

mom dad keep forgiving & teach me how to love pl..

in secondary..

result keep goin worst..

mom dad start worrying..

in college..

don need to say..

~GG~

so what..?!

i know my bad..

but damn!

im fucking work hard to make everything right now!

1 of my dear dear called ask what i plan for my future..

i say ntg, maybe simply marry a rich guy.. (marry him..?, i rather die)

so, what now..

i know must make a decision..

i know the dateline in closer now..

but i fucking dunno what to do maa!!!

keep drug myself everyday..

hey hey, i mean keep playing games..

from day til nite..

from nite til day..

spoilt my diet plan..

keep eat everything nice to chill me up..

now, totally not dare to face the mirror & know my weight..

fuck ! i duno what am i fucking crap over here now..

argh~! whatever la, cincai la

song most suit our relationship~ according to you ~ orianthi

According to you

I'm stupid, I'm useless,

I can't do anything right.

According to you

I'm difficult,

hard to please,

forever changing my mind.

I'm a mess in a dress,

can't show up on time,

even if it would save my life.

According to you.

But according to him

I'm beautiful, incredible,

he can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny, irresistible,

everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,

I don't feel like stopping it,

so baby tell me what I got to lose.

He's into me for everything I'm not,

 according to you.

According to you

I'm boring,

I'm moody,

you can't take me any place.

According to you

I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.

I'm the girl with the worst attention span;

you're the boy who puts up with it.

According to you.

According to you.

I need to feel appreciated,

like I'm not hated.

oh-- no--.

Why can't you see me through his eyes?

It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to me

you're stupid,

you're useless,

you can't do anything right.

But according to him

I'm beautiful, incredible,

he can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny, irresistible,

everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,

I don't feel like stopping it,

baby tell me what I got to lose.

He's into me for everything I'm not,

according to you. [you, you]

According to you. [you, you]

According to you

I'm stupid,

I'm useless,

I can't do anything right~

new year eve.. shryne see people's feel.. oh crap~

1st, shryne wish everybody happy new year.. today, 1st of january in my mind i must settle up all my mess of my pass.. there is a lots of thing i must face it, i cant ignore it forever, its my fate.. i cannot do other thing to upgrade myself if i haven done my base.. so, this is my plan, im goin to use half of 2010 to settle up all my mess.. this is my 2010 goal !!! *i know its small but this really help me a lots to make me walk better.. ^^

ok now, how i celebrate my count down yesterday.? im thinking of have some chilling activities v some of my best frens.. obviously they not really available for me for this special day.. T.T, so sad.. anyway, im still enjoy yesterday.. this is because i still have my bobo & my very old machi frens celebrate v me.. haha

the club is damn crowded & freaking smelly v those snowy spray things.. the most funny is my 2 gangs of pl they have their own table, which is most easy to recognize.. my bobo's table is at girls toilet there & my frens's table is at guys toilet there.. so i can easily find both of them.. haha

im so busy walking here & there to entertain both of them.. lolz.. go here dance a while, go there drink a while.. lolz, like a liqour gal.. im so enjoy club or hang out v alex & jinda them.. they make me really enjoy the enviroment, so miss the time when we always together since we all in form 3.. 3 of us hugging together dance then alex suddenlly say out he is so happy & cant believe so many years edi we still can be together until now, jus poor nicole she stuck in jam at kl so cant come over.. =(

when the party goin to end, most of the pl r drunk.. especially my fren's table.. i go to their table for last round, mr k seriouslly cant stand edi, he freaking drunk like hell.. i keep holding him & also entertain him dance a while suddenly he tell everybody he wan bring me home v him.. fuck ! i was shock..?? no la, i know him, fren don sleep v fren.. haha.. i know he is too lonely & sad cos keep heard he say to chloe that he is giving up.. (a girl he love so much) yes, man..! forget her since she don appreciate u, there still a lots of flowers waiting u out there.. whole new year, whole new life..

jus now chat v michelle on phone.. miss her & whole gang of them so much.. she & K still at s'pore & K's company is totally handle by him now.. so proud of him can success his goal b4 he 25 years old.. lolz.. cant believe he did it.. of cos, there is 1 more thing make me happy that is my 2 dear dear din forget me~ haha, they got wish me on time on yesterday.. hehe.. jus hate K ask me don keep change bf anymore, be steady.. swt, since when i keep change bf after the bastard..?!!! hng, u duno me K, im good gal now..! muaahah

ok, thats all my crap here.. phiew... now im goin to reach my little goal since i've say it here edi.. if not u guys sure laugh a me talk nonsence.. hahaha

happy new year my friends..! xoxo, muakz