happy birthday DD

hi, i know tomorow is ur birthday.. but i better post up now.. i maybe busy tomoro.. haha XD
well this is the song i wanted to give it to you last year.. but i dont have the guts. so now~~~\

Hey you
I know I'm in the wrong
Time flies
When you're having fun
You wake up
Another year is gone
You're twenty-one (actually 22)

I guess you wanna know
Why I'm on the phone
It's been a day or so
I know it's kind of late
But Happy Birthday

Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kinda late
But Happy Birthday

So hard
When you're far away
It's lame but I forgot the date
I won't make the same mistake
I'm so to blame

So now you know
Don't hang up the phone
I wish I was at home
I know it's way too late
But Happy Birthday

Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kinda late
But Happy Birthday
It's not that I don't care
You know I'll make it up to you
If I could, I'd be there

Yeah yeah whoa
Yeah yeah whoa

Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kind of lame
But Happy Birthday

Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you, too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it's kind of late
But Happy Birthday
To You

It's Over....

I watch the wall around me crumble
but it's not like I wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end


And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye


I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole


My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye


I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

Over... Over... Over...

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye


I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it toget
tell me that it's over
tell me that it's over
over

Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that it's over

If wan read this pls don be mean.. this is what my feels... ^^

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Finally finally & finally i've done 1 thing i wan to do for very long time ago.. Now i've done it.. 2 years ago, i've realize all the things i though is totally wrong.. especially wat i've learn is 'never ever play game in relationship'.. Do u believe in karma..? Guess what? I finally believe.. It do happen to me right now..

What is the thing i wan to do for so long..? Is i wanna admit my wrong  abt what i've done to him 2 years ago.. How..? There is a night 1 of my babe, Victoria tel me some what Jess*#@%  tryin to let her know how bad am i in my past, the way i treat my ex.. Yes, its truth.. I've make him crazy.. I admit it.. But maybe 1 thing u don know bitch! Is i never ever LIE ! If any pl ask me abt how fantasy is my past, im surely say it honestly.. For those frens i've 'hurt' pls don say so much how much i've hurt u.. This is because i've no doubt the way i treat my frens.. Pl who know me well sure know i treat frens better than my bf.. lolz, i feel like totally bitch now.. yea, im.. so..? But what i do from now on, i do it by my heart sincerely.. FAKE not my style.. Well, until now i think i never treat anyone bad except 1 lifeless bitch who deserve it.. haha.. XD (babe,pls don mad at me)

okok..

(DD, i am sorry..) This is what i wan to say out loud.. I never wan u to forgive.. I jus wan say it out how much i regret when i lost u.. But is ok now.. ^^ we both have our own new life & different happy ending.. Glad to see u have a happy life.. Opps.. not see.. is hear.. haha ^^

10 little th!ngs I LOVE U~

bobo.. see ur babe me so good, din update my thing 1st but urs 1st.. haha (actually those pic have to load, im lazy)
sry, bobo.. until nw i stil no idea hw to celebrate ur bday.. to be honest, i din realize we together almost 2 years d.. its really surprising me.. haha..

so here, make u happy.. let u know what i love abt u la~~~

1~ of cos all my frens know, u always be there help me done all my assignment no matter how hard it is..
      i know im bad never say thanks, bt u know u love me too la.. hahaha

2~ always be my driver when i need u.. bt bobo, i prefer u drive my car.. haha XD

3~ always explain to me when im not understand the movie.. bt bobo, pls improve ur explaination, don always ask u wat is rebellion then u answer me rebellion la.. swt =.=||| 

4~ always be my english teacher even u always laugh at me stupid, NVM i can scold u in chns back.. haha u dunno le??!!!

5~ i love bobo hold my hand went up stair sleep & on the lights for me.. hehe u know i afraid of ghost..

6~ i love bobo always give me ur skeleton arm, hug me & calm me sleep.. poor u keep change hand when another hand is numb.. haha

7~ always eat other part of chicken cos u know i love wings.. actually i know u like chicken wings too.. haha

8~ love u started less smoking for me.. im trying too.. lets work together bobo..

9~ love ur dance at home.. (only me & gizmo can see only)

10~ this is what i love u most ! nick aw tiong ghee.. u never give me up easily, at the begining u waiting for me. u never give up me when i keep push u away, u say we tolerate, actually i know is u tolerate me more.. u let me be selfish gf.. u let me be the girl pl envy me so much.. i love u bobo..

18~01~2010

today, some of my frens ask where do i count down my brithday.. 
so ok, i post this out let u guys know.. haha..

actually, i've never plan to count down.. 
cause im too busy after i wake up early in the morning.. 
i've to help my parent take care of their shops cause mommy & daddy sick in same time swt.. 
no choice la, who ask them yesterday so yeng suddenly good in mood say im 21 years old d so wanted to bring me go casino.. 

haha, actually i've went in before edi jus they dunno only.. 
see how good gal am i infront of them haha.. 
so when reach genting there is quite late d cause need visit my youngest bro a while.. 
daddy fast fast run to his lovely playground 1st cause he don wan waste him time to accompany us buy clothes for my bro.. 
when talk abt my bro..? 
1 word
~ haih~

he wear a very normal t-shirt, short pant && slipper !!! 
argh~! 
so no choice la, need help him buy from top til down.. 
so regret din capture his before & after look..
freaking different.. 
before, he so like at hometown yam cha look.. 
after, he do really so yeng zai like ready to club.. 
haha, he is goin to lose his very 1st time club v me soon.. 

then we try bring my underage bro to casino.. 
1st door check, he failed.. 
2nd door check, failed.. 
3rd door check, success.. yeah~ 
guess wat..? 
give guards money..?
no no no.. 
use my bobo's IC.. 
hahaha.. 
they also got check me too, yeah~ i look young.. 
haha.. 

after that bobo & daddy teach my bro little bit abt gamble things.. 
haih, 2 gambler pls don teach bad little boy la.. sad.. 
we jus go in around 2 hours only then go to the casino's restaurant have supper.. 
haih, my fav buffet boh liao.. 
now change to stupid mainly dishes.. 
not nice to eat at all also.. 
bluek.. 
so, thats all our vacation then we reach home around 2am something.. *this is the reason y daddy & mommy exhausted fall sick jor.. haha   


ohya, forget to say how i count down.. hehe, its in the car v my bobo~! yeah ! how..?

aiyoyo, stil got any excited thing can do in car middle of the night~~
~think more than that~

jeng jeng jeng

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by stuck in jam of block on the way back to kl.. muahahah
but anyway, im happy of it cause i get a lots of birthday wishes summore there is a very unexpected pl wish me too.. haha

happy birthday to myself
xoxo, no gossip girl ><"

G!zmo wash white white ><"

suddenly feel like want to share my 2 weeks din bath silky terrier dog, gizmo's look..
ngek ngek.. before & after...

 lol, momo's stinky look.. ew.... hehehe.. so afraid, at the sink, prepare to let me bath him.. ngek ngek..

after the bubble & water war~!!!

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~jeng jeng jeng~

muahahah... leng zai le.. hohoho

all right, thats all i wanna share..

have a nice day, woof woof..

what am i avoiding for ?

fuck ! im freaking dizzy recently..

too much stress coming now..

mom ask not to think so much cause im stil young..?

damn ! im almost 21 now mom !

its the time now..

i must face the fact..

i must plan for my future..

i miss all my time when im in kindergarden..

so young, so little..

but big boss, mom dad love me so much..

 in primary..

shryne still is the boss who always bully pl..

mom dad keep forgiving & teach me how to love pl..

in secondary..

result keep goin worst..

mom dad start worrying..

in college..

don need to say..

~GG~

so what..?!

i know my bad..

but damn!

im fucking work hard to make everything right now!

1 of my dear dear called ask what i plan for my future..

i say ntg, maybe simply marry a rich guy.. (marry him..?, i rather die)

so, what now..

i know must make a decision..

i know the dateline in closer now..

but i fucking dunno what to do maa!!!

keep drug myself everyday..

hey hey, i mean keep playing games..

from day til nite..

from nite til day..

spoilt my diet plan..

keep eat everything nice to chill me up..

now, totally not dare to face the mirror & know my weight..

fuck ! i duno what am i fucking crap over here now..

argh~! whatever la, cincai la