Helpless...

Im so lonely, feel so empty.. Cant believe my 1 more important pl leave me...... why ! why u all must leave me alone here..? All of my dearest leave is for their future, that i can forgive.. But u ! u this stupid bastard ! how cum u so stupid do this kind of thing ! why u so stupid mix with those kind of pl make u go in this fucking shit road ! u say jus do it 1 time only but how ?!! now this 1 time make u cant come back anymore...

my dear, i really dunno wat happen to u.. i dunno why u wan do this but do u ever think of ur family be4 u did ths ?? do u know godfather & mom very worry and sad abt u when i go visit them after this incident?? last year i tot u edi mature, wont simply make mistake anymore.. since u take over ur dad's business every1 is looking good at u even mr.K** also.. me & godfather, ur dad was proud of u also.. after the incident which hapen on me last year, its almost 1 year i never meet u edi.. i know we can meet each other and our gang on our fren's funeral.. but now, we cant see u anymore or maybe 10 years later.. dear, u're the 1 who also protect me so much as ur real sister even our relationhip end, u stil care for me so much.. i really cant take this fate that i'll lost u jus like this.. i cant believe it.. i duno wat to say, i jus know im freaking mad at u !! Damn u ! u seriouslly is a stupid asshole ! however, jus take k whereever u are.. we will miss u so much,gor..

What love is ?

There are a lots of question i feel like every pl can't explain the best question is WHAT IS LOVE ??

Q : What is love ?

A1 : Love is care the person more than urself.. (bullshit! if u care urself than how u able to care other pl!)

A, from wikipedia : Love, as an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love. Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts. (wow, so detail til i stil not understand this crap)

There is some answer from 4-8 years old kids.. Its awesome ! Easy, short & straight !

• 'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.' Rebecca- age 8
  
• 'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' Billy - age 4
  
• 'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.' Chrissy - age 6
  
• 'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.' Terri - age 4
  
• 'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.' Danny - age 7
  
• 'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.' Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
  
• 'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.' Noelle - age 7
  
• 'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,' Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
  
• 'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.' Cindy - age 8
  
• 'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken..' Elaine-age 5
  
• 'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.' Mary Ann - age 4
  
• 'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.' Jessica - age 8

And the final one

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

hmm..... so its LOVE, its important in many ways even in even those boys & girls method, family & others.. actually i dunno wat am i talking abt bt i really like all the answer from those kids, its very meaningful..

Should I mad at u ??!!!!!

gal, u're my best ever fren even i dunno u got treat me as like this be4 or not.. but i really treat u sincerely.. when in secondary, u know there are a lots of thing happen around us, all our frens.. but u know, i would never lie on u.. i always stand by u no matter wat happen.. even u're making some wrong decision, yes i'll scold u & keep on advise u like grandmada but u know de end i support u & prepare 2 lend u my shoulder when u need it.. im always there for u, u're the only 1 i say out all my secret, when im freaking happy & not happy, im jus thinking to find u out.. i miss the time u came 2 my house overnite & u not dare 2 wake up eary than me den i always took pillow 2 knock ur head.. i miss de time we almost everyday hang out together even jus go for a lunch o wat, cos we'll feel damn weird if we din meet each other 1 day.. then u went to kl study early dan me.. first few weeks, we chat in phone everyday, haha, funny there is 1 time we both pursposely don wan cal to each other for 1 week den we complain each other to our bf.. there are a lots of memory abt u.. i always act stupid & 4give u when u did sumthing wrong o take benefit from me cos i treat u as my best true fren even i know sumtime i fierce when im not happy..

gal, u know ?? its been near 1 year edi.. u seldom ask me out.. u always busy when i ask u so.. u beeing more & more strange to me.. how cum u not dare 2 cum my bday party alone since u're most close to me ?? even pei ling this little gal she aso dare to cum alone, cos she treat me as her good fren.. why? why u cant ??!! my heart really pain when im thinking of my best fren didnt come on my big day ?? de feel is fucking lonely, lonely dan being single.. yesterday, again.. u dissapointed me again.. finally u say u're free to hang out yam cha v me.. i was so happy cos can share my all recently unhappy things v my best fren.. but de end, 8 pm i call u, u say u need wait for sum1 to give things, fine, i wait for u another hour.. 9 pm, u called, u ask me 2 wait for u until 12 am (means 4 hours) cos u got thing to do again but u never told me wat it is so dat i can have a reason to 4give u.. NO ! u never ! den until 1.20 am, u msg me ask me stil wanna hang out ?? sorry babe, its too late..(not de time, is u make me hurt) i dunno wat kind of emo i can use 2 face u.. u're my best true fren, how true ? 1st, i would never ever lie on u. 2nd, im always true to u, happy o unhappy. 3rd, im always stand by u no matter wat happen with no doubt........

but now.. im doubt abt u.. i think i shouldnt mad at u.. maybe u're not my last time *po anymore..

anyway, hope u happy ever after with ur own life..

Little devil, Gizmo..~~"

My dear little devil, gizmo.. 1 and half years old male silky terrier, damn hyperactive, super noisy, sometimes look loving & love pretend pity’s smart ass..

OUR GOAL KEEPER, GIZMO.. WOOF WOOF

His perfect move is ‘gong xi gong xi’ or please please, love to climb up stair dunno wat he busy abt, wat I love most is he can be future england ‘goal keeper’ he can catch ball perfectly and the only 1 I hate most is he love to ‘marking’ every corner of the house.. And and he love his ‘wiffy’(small pillow) very much, he will be crazy if he saw u hide his lover.. haha
The only thing to aware abt my litle devil, gizmo is everyone especially stranger must say hi to gizmo 1st when come in to house if not he sure bark non stop & hate u..

Recently my this little devil was very unlucky, few weeks ago his ear was infected after went grooming from pet shop.. he keep on scractch his ear until bleed, den we bring him to vet.. haih, pity him need to wear the thing( sumthing like umbrella) to cover from let him scratch his ear again.. the most sad part is we need to wash his ear every day for 2 weeks, I not dare to wash his ear cos I really sad to hear his pain.. I feel very sad & pain for him when see babe & his bro them wash his ear.. he cry very loud & pee cos too pain & scare..

THIS IS WHEN HE USED TO THE 'UMBRELLA' ~~"

Then today his right eye cant open, heard ‘dai sou’ say is he hurt by soap.. haih, poor gizmo need to wear the ‘umbrella’ again.. its been whole day edi, we’ve try all we can do but ur eye never really open.. now my mood jus like u very down, see u not in mood to play I dunno wat to do jus look at u lying on floor rest ..

Want know more abt me..? Shryne name represent me

Shryne,
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible.
But for the important things, you pull it together.


~get it..? if get it pls tel me.. i stil not (100%) get it.. lolz~

A BAD sister..

Today is my bro's 1st day went back his college after his business course foundation.
I edi move out our house few months ago and he dont know abt it. Luckily i call him last week tell him abt i move so that he can stay at grandma house 1st.

He call me when i was in class waiting to present my stupid presentation which is rushing done by this morning. He tell me that he edi find a room nearby his coll which is at de shophouse. I know all de shophouse very lack facilities and uncomfortable so i dowan let him stay there and ask him why don stay v me. Then all the word he answer me really make me realize & awake abt my personality. He say I seldom went back hum leave him alone at hum always den he need to have dinner alone, and do everything alone. I really feel I'm a seriously damn bad sister. I remember last year is his 1st year at coll den he always sick cos he cant get use all de food at kl and drink very less water, he is too new here and me this bloody sister dun even take care of him keep on hang out v my ex bf even he is fever. I really feel so guilty to him, be as sister never care abt own bro.

Fei, shirley really feel so sorry to u.. pls forgive me and i promise we will stay happier this time, u wont be alone anymore.

unlucky day

Sad ar sad ar.. how cum I suddenly sick jor?!! Last nite I was very active run here & there at the mall searching pink polo-t for ma babe.. ngek ngek, dat is his 1st pink colour shirt wo.. hehe, so proud of it...Babe, must wear it oOoOoO.. i sure ur mommy luv it.. muahahaha

Hmm, today all a plan cant go jor lo.. cant have sweet warm dinner v ma babe, and sharon them and also cant go for our gathering at m.o.s club.. sad.. 2moro dear Victoria them gonna back hometown edi.. haih, really hate this fever make me cant see ma dear Victoria & jesslyn for 1 last time.. anyway, I will miss u gal so much..
YoOoOo, I wan go play at m.o.s.. now lying on bed look at da clock da time near & near to 11 pm make me hope I suddenly recover le.. haih, I think now they sure very enjoy edi.. cos tonite damn many pl going even our very goodboy collmate, lawrence going aso.. sure very fun lo.. swt..

Haih, sad ar.. now so many pl going back humtown edi even ma babe aso( hng, angry u) make me duno wat to do during Chinese new year.. LONELY I MRS LONELY......


swt, babe wanna bring ma duck duck back humtown.. poor duck duck sure get torture by him.. wu~~~